ten again: a reboot

it was a ten-sentence tuesday. she slid silently back into the modest pond she created because she could. besides, it belonged to her. she needed to remind herself of this frequently. what was hers. though she never truly forgot, if she was being honest. she was born a creator. she conjured up all the realities … Continue reading →

here i am again, surrender

if 2020 has taught me nothing else, it’s that i don’t control much at all (which is not to say i am not powerful). the struggle of wanting to do things my way and on my timeline is exhausting, inevitably disappointing and hasn’t proven to be very fruitful if i’m being honest. at least, not … Continue reading →

lemme go head and hit “publish”

folks do it all the time and don’t struggle nearly as much about it as this one right here does. they have an idea, get the words together, put a virtual stamp on it and (e)mail that chumpy. Or they pitch and sell that sucker or at the very least they hit the ‘publish’ button … Continue reading →

ten sentences

back in the day, fresh out of a costly writing program, a couple of writer friends and i formed a writing group. we shared resources, workshopped rough, rough drafts and encouraged one another when we started to take ourselves (or other people’s opinions) too seriously. to keep ourselves creatively juicy, we committed to sending each … Continue reading →

once upon a time…

once upon a time after a free write during which I wrote a new thought about an old subject, i paused and put my pencil down. I showered, dressed and headed out the door to meet a friend for a movie. the new, enlightened thought stayed on my shoulder, whispering in my ear the whole ride to midtown. over … Continue reading →

why i (struggle to) write

As a little girl coming up in a household where it was understood that “what happens in this house, stays in this house” and i was expected to “speak when spoken to,” i learned early on that my voice wasn’t valued. it could even be hazardous. (a major goal of childhood is to AVOID the whoopings, … Continue reading →

i AM a writer

i am a writer. this is me telling myself. i am reaffirming this because it’s what i need to do. i have trouble owning the title; i still hesitate when saying the words. i know i’ve caused my own discomfort with a definition that is unforgiving. in my head, i’ve failed to become a writer because it’s not … Continue reading →

the lost (​and found) file

the following is an abandoned post that i discovered last month saved as a “draft.” it’s been chilling all by its lonesome for two years i neglected this blog. i don’t know if i was finished or where i might have been going with this but it’s an interesting (to say the least) snapshot of who i … Continue reading →

Note to Self #1: You Will Fall Off the Bike

  hey self: you will fall off the bike. everyone does. from down there, where gravity and defeat attempt to seduce you, you’ll ask yourself: do you want to be a rider? bend a corner so smooth and swift you wonder why you were born with legs? do you want to go up against the … Continue reading →

Activity vs. inspiration

A quote garnered from the slush of emails I went through mentioned how one might confuse activity with inspired work. Now that I’m writing this, I wish I’d have paid closer attention to the source of the quote. I don’t think I considered the distinction until now. Activity is the routine of writing as a … Continue reading →